MERRY CHRISTMAS

i miss those times when people exchange christmas card.
think it was more personal and sincere than today's twitter greeting.
well but i'm one of many persons using it last night and today.
happy christmas, anyway.

guarding

2 oktober 2010

biarlah tulisan kali ini jadi seperti catatan harian. seperti si boy yang sekadar berbagi cerita kurang penting.

ceritanya kemarin siang ibu menelepon pada jam kerja untuk mengingatkan makan siang. tak berapa lama setelah ibu menutup telepon, giliran bu boss yang menelepon anaknya yang sudah kepala tiga, sudah punya rumah sendiri, dan sudah punya perusahaan sendiri. seperti ibu saya, bu boss juga hanya mengecek keadaan anaknya.

lucu juga rasanya. sepetinya hati 11 dari 10 ibu diisi oleh anaknya.

selamat hari ibu.

it was like playing hide and seek

some part of me hid hole and corner

the other part cried to be found

it is as if i were real

one day i'd like to have a studio-like room. it'll be filled with many different stuff.

on a corner, i'll cover the wall with mirror so i can stretch my body as if i were a ballerina.

i will add some musical instruments. i'll pretend to play the piano or guitar as if i were on stage.

one side of the wall will be my canvas where i can paint anything as if i were a true artist.

then i'll make a small cubicle and turn it into a darkroom, so i can proceed the picture i took as if i were a pro.

also i'll install a computer with a big flat screen, not just a mini laptop. i will see the outer world as if i were locked in a cave.

i will have shelves of books and bunches of papers, so i can read or write or doodle as if i have nothing else to do.

when i'm tired, i'll just lay down on my bamboo rug, as if i were dead.

i hate monday

saya teringat masa-masa sekolah di mana saya lumayan sering salah seragam. seringnya saya salah memakai seragam putih padahal bukan hari senin. kesalahan bodoh itu selalu terjadi kalau ada libur yang masuknya saat pertengahan minggu. otomatis saya mencomot seragam putih-putih dari lemari sejak malam sebelumnya. saya selalu berpikir pendek, 'kalau hari ini libur, berarti besoknya ya senin.' sempit ya otak ini...

twilight

there's a reason why being alone is a pleasure.

it is time when you may care for yourself without caring about anything else.

rest in peace, dear sei young

maybe not many of you have known that a girl named kim sei young has been missing since last tuesday (june/8) at bogor, indonesia. kim and other fellow students were doing outbound activity, crossing a river, when she lost her grip and fell to the river. on that moment, big water came and drove her away. an outbound instructor, ade parlindungan, immediately jumped to the river in order to save her. unfortunately, he was found lifeless on the next morning. on the other hand, all the rescue team haven't found kim's body up until this is written.

kim sei young from south korea, approximately 13-14 year old, is a year 8 student in british international school, jakarta. outbound at bogor has been a regular activity for BIS' students since 2002, so the school manage to let this go as an accident. meanwhile many parents regret it because it's supposed to be predicted before, the weather was no good for river-crossing and yet they still went on with that condition.

a group of parents has been praying for kim's safety, or at least being found. together, they've been folding origami birds and let them float on the river. later, the birds were folded using one-thousand-rupiah-paper. the idea is to urge the locals to track the money down the river, so that they may found kim.

end of term - the project

every story must come to an end

each hello is closed by farewell

till we meet again...

akhirnya hari ini tiba juga. hari terakhir magang saya di kantor yang satu ini. hari terakhir dari project saya ini. pastinya project ini masih jauh dari sempurna tapi cukup bangga bisa menyelesaikannya sampai hari ini, meski dengan tambal-sulam. hehe. 

selesainya project ini tidak menjawab pertanyaan tentang masa depan saya, tapi banyak hal yang didapat dari si project. belajar dikejar deadline dan belajar curang -waktu cuma posting gambar. apakah besok saya masih akan menge-post setiap hari? we'll see. rajin nge-post ada asyiknya juga. apa yang ada di kepala akhirnya dituangkan juga. apa yang tidak ada di kepala akhirnya harus sok-sok diada-adain. 

terima kasih banyak kepada segelintir orang yang mengikuti perkembangan project saya. terima kasih untuk dukungan teman-teman semua. terima kasih juga untuk esther, si pelopor yang sudah kembali ke tanah air. dan yang pasti, terima kasih, tuhan.

if only i could do it everyday

confession no. 1

i love my after-work ritual: going to supermarket, japanese supermarket for particular.

confession no. 2

i love shopping for groceries and also ready-to-serve dinner

confession no. 3

i love seeing nice japanese guys there, plus i can tell they're also doing their own after-work ritual

confession no. 4

i tend to postpone finishing my shopping when there's a nice looking guy. 

confession no. 5

when he walked out the store, i walked out the store.

senang, sesak, lapar...

inacraft merupakan acara tahunan yang diadakan di balai sidang jakarta convention center. tahun ini inacraft berlangsung dari 21-25 april. lima hari sepertinya tidak cukup untuk menjelajahi pameran di tujuh area di jcc. segala macam barang bisa ditemukan di sana, mulai dari kain batik, mebel antik, sampai mainan anak. 

saya baru berkesempatan mengunjungi inacraft hari minggu (25) kemarin. ya, saya tahu pengunjung hari terakhir pasti akan sangat membludak. maka saya dan seorang teman tiba di tempat sekitar pukul sebelas pagi. lorong-lorong pameran masih lengang dan kami pun bisa mampir ke setiap stand dengan santai dan memperhatikan setiap barang, satu per satu. 

setelah selesai berjalan-jalan di hall kedua, kaki mulai lemas dan perut mulai memanggil-manggil. kami kemudian mencari makan di snack bar yang disediakan di dalam gedung. sayang harga makanan agak kurang sesuai kocek. kurang lebih empat puluh ribu rupiah untuk seporsi makanan, nasi dan lauk, yang menggoda plus tujuh ribu untuk sebotol air mineral. jadi terpaksa kami menahan lapar dan melanjutkan perjalanan setelah istiraat sesaat. 

tujuan kami pun mulai berubah, dari  yang hanya jelajah santai jadi mencari barang di stand yang sudah pasti. masalahnya kami harus berputar-putar mencari stand yang dituju dan cuci mata hanya dilakukan sembari lewat. orang-orang juga semakin banyak sehingga kami harus pintar-pintar menyelip dengan sopan. setelah selesai dengan misi itu, kami sudah terlalu lapar dan letih untuk melanjutkan jalan-jalan. tujuan akhir adalah mencari pintu keluar dan itu pun agak sulit karena kami tidak memegang peta dan tidak ingat jalan menuju pintu keluar. 

overall, inacraft kurang lebih sama  dengan tahun-tahun sebelumnya tapi kali ini saya tidak menemukan aksesoris atau barang yang cukup menarik. hanya satu stand mainan anak-anak yang barang-barangnya malah import. yang aneh llagi, ada stand sepatu yang biasa hadir di mall-mall ibu kota. bukan sesuatu yang cocok ada di inacraft sepertinya. tapi jangan percaya dengan pendapat saya, karena bservasi lapangan itu saya lakukan dalam kondisi keleyengan, letih dan lapar.

sampai jumpa di inacraft tahun depan!

sepele

mengerikan sekali hubungan manusia dengan teknologi. mereka seperti pasangan yang tak terpisahkan. bahkan lebih parah lagi, mereka begitu terikat sampai-sampai sulit dipisahkan. beberapa hari saja tanpa internet, rasanya seperti mati kutu. tugas langsung tak bisa dikerjakan, pekerjaan langsung tak terselesaikan, alasannya hanya karena nggak bisa browsing. bahkan rasanya jadi seperti nggak punya teman karena nggak bisa chatting. 

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sekalian memohon maaf karena tidak menge-post apa pun selama tiga hari kemarin. alasannya sepele, internet mati.

regarding the new t

kemarin saya memakai kaos baru dengan gambar seperti di postingan sebelum ini. lucu juga ada beberapa orang yang menanggapi padahal saya pikir kaosnya nggak akan ada yang notice.

- itu gambar muka lo ya?

- mukanya kayak nenek-nenek

- bukan deng, itu muka lo

- bagus deh sketsanya

- tapi tulisannya emo banget

- rotten artinya apa sih?

- bikin sendiri ya?

- bisa pesen?

new t

bite the pizza and grab the beer

last weekend i went to visit a new place (for me) to dine in. well, the other mission is to see the live band performing. you supposed to know what i mean, it's a-girls-night-out-on-saturday-night-without-any-boys.

the place is called pizza e birra at setia budi. i always order the signature of every place, such as at pizza e birra, i decided to order its most wanted pizza -plus dessert pizza with sweet topping- and of course, a glass of beer. i should say the thin pizza is delicious and my favorite is mushroom and cheese. don't be fooled, the real name is too hard for me to remembered, it's something about fungi... as for the famous lychee beer, i don't fancy it too much. i like it and that's all. i also tried pasta carbonara which is delicious but i don't think the same for it's mushroom pasta with some red sauce. the last is my must-order menu, french fries with chili and blue sauce. the taste of bolognaise was so perfect with melted blue cheese on top of the fries.

beside the food, the atmosphere is great to hang out with friends. i repeat, with friends. it's not the type of place want to have a date at. other than that, the band is good. you may go there at weekend to see it. also, i just found out a new event at the restaurant. soon, it will starting movie night at setia budi branch. you can name your favorite indie movie for the screening.

you can visit pizza e birra at setia budi or plaza indonesia and do prepare the money. at least 100k idr for each person to enjoy the moment. have fun!

pic taken from pizza e birra's facebook.

ok. saya akui sekian post terakhir agak curang karena harus membayar empat post yang terlalaikan beberapa hari terakhir. mohon maaf ya, pemirsa.

by halston (2)

blessed are thou with do not have big boobies. low cut v-neck is just right.

here is by far my favorite dress

by halston

never like layered dress or any blouse but these ones (from halston) are exceptional!

how i wish

i wish to go around the world,

as carefree as i can be

worrying no problem but to choose,

what-to-eat-first,

or where- to-first.

i want to forget the benefit of money

i want to be cruising in love

i want to fly beyond imagination

masa muda, 

janganlah kau hilang direnggut tugas.

dear michael

i should have stopped listening to your songs. but how can i when i miss you so much? here i come exaggerate it again and again. but honestly, always i feel like crying every time i listen to your voice. and then again, i go with it anyway.

manusia banyak mau memang.

dikasih panas, minta hujan.

dikasih hujan, nawar besok aja. 

yah manusia itu adalah saya.

kamu loncat, aku loncat

kemarin orang-orang disibukkan dengan gayus tambunan, hari ini semua koran memuat susno duadji di halaman utama. bintang tiga terus disebut-sebut. apa orang sudah mulai lupa dengan masalah bank century? apa masyarakat belum bosan dipermainkan oleh berita-berita semacam itu? bukankah ini semua hanya permainan politik yang kotor? siapa pun bisa jadi korbannya. dunia politik indonesia hanya seperti lingkaran setan yang akan ters berputar di situ-situ saja. quote dalam film titanic berlaku di sini, 'you jump, i jump' kalau yang satu jatuh, otomatis semua terseret bersamanya.

lily lily, you're so fine

klappertart

i don't feel well and i need a klappertart.


pic from http://emwei.files.wordpress.com/2008/03/klappertart.jpg?w=395&h=436

push to the limit

there are things you can do. there are things you can't do. you may choose to keep learning the things you haven't mastered yet. but you may also flip to another field where you're best on.

i really love the place i'm working at, well, at least for now. but i have to face the fact that i'm not belong here, not on this floor. sadly, i have to admit my lack of creativity. i've tried and i realised what i'm not capable of. i've pushed myself to the limit, so now i have to move on. i'm going to seek a place where i belong.

there are only two weeks left. i'll do my best without hoping for anything. i just need to finish what i started.

dr john - mika

i look for joy in the strange place
from the back of a bar, from afar
i see the look of my mama's face
when her son in the corner undone
she says that my life is over
boy, you don't know what you got till its gone
come put your head upon my shoulder
she gave me her hand but i ignore her

oh dr john
what am doing what am doing wrong?
cause i keep on trying
something ain't going something ain't going on
dr john

i look for joy in the strange place
from the back of a bar, from afar
i see the look on my daddy's face
when his son falling over, undone
father, my life is over
i didn't know what i had, now its gone
can i lay my head upon your shoulder?
if i fall asleep will it be over?

oh dr john
what am doing what am doing wrong?
cause i keep on trying
something aint going something aint going on
dr john

oh dr john
what am doing what am doing wrong?
cause i keep on trying
something ain't going something ain't going on

you said i'm a big heartbreaker
but doctor i never hurt your heart
isn't it obvious?

oh dr john
what am doing what am doing wrong?
cause i keep on trying
something ain't going something ain't going on

oh dr john
another day, another breakup
we hold on and on
we hold on and on

oh dr john
another day, another wake up
we hold on and on
we hold on and on

oh dr john
another day, another break up
what am i doing what am doing wrong?
cause i keep on trying
something ain't going something ain't going on

oh dr john
what am i doing what am doing wrong?
cause i keep on trying
something ain't going something ain't going on

dr john
dr john

by norman rockwell

his name is a new thing for me but seeing his drawings is so familiar.

what-to-wear?

when you got a call for interview, 'what to wear?' definitely top on your mind. well, despite worrying questions and answers for the interview, of course.

normally, you'll worry about what-to-wear on the interview. if you got accepted, you'll seek for what-to-wear on your first day. that's how it goes.

but the thing you're supposed to worry about is what-to-wear-on your second interview? who even thought there will be a second interview?

sudah bosan dengan gayus?

saya juga bosan, jadi mohon maaf karena saya tetap menjadikannya topik hari ini.

gayus tambunan, seorang pegawai pajak yang menjadi tersangka kasus penyelewengan pajak sebesar Rp 28 miliar. jujur, saya kurang mengikuti berita ini tapi tanpa mengikutinya saja kuping saya sudah gerah dibuatnya.

yang jadi pemikiran saya hanya satu hal. kenapa orang-orang heboh dengan si gayus yang nilep uang sebesar 28 miliar, padahal ada orang yang digosipkan bikin resepsi pernikahan sampai 100 miliar?

mika - the boy who knew too much

michael holbrook penniman, jr. yes, that's the real name of the famous mika. i love him since his first album, life in cartoon motion. you may love an artist for his song, but you may not enjoy his entire album. while mika, i love all his songs in his first album. it has been quite long ago but i still remember the words he sang. there was a period of time when i start my morning with 'i want to talk to you' from grace kelly.

later last year, mika released another album titled 'the boy who knew too much'. again, i love all the songs. not to mention the hits 'we are golden', 'blame it on the girls', 'rain'. i surely love them all.

i'm telling you, mika is one kind of thing! his music is so great, with his freddy mercury-like voice, his witty lyrics, and of course his fine-looking face. too shame, he's not coming to indonesia because some source said he's afraid to. oh deary michael, please don't be scared of indonesia. please come. please...

pic from http://londonist.com/attachments/London_Talia/mika1.jpg

tiris

saat ini kondisi keuangan saya sedang menipis. sudah asyik nabung dan siap beli sedikit ini-itu, komputer rusak dan harus ganti power supply. 'cuma' beberapa ratus ribu sih tapi mohon maaf kepada teman-teman yang berulang tahun dua bulan terakhir ini, tidak (belum) ada hadiah untuk kalian, apalagi yang ulang tahun banyak sekali.

selamat ulang tahun, siapa pun di sana.

happy easter!

happy good friday

koc & jens lekman live at jakarta

setelah beberapa waktu belakangan selalu mengeluh betapa saya belum hafal lagu-lagu koc dan jens lekman, rasanya kini saya wajib membayarnya dengan meringkas konser yang telah lalu itu. selamat menilik balik.
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Hari Minggu (28/03) kemarin akhirnya datang juga yang telah dinanti-nanti, Kings of Convinience dan Jens Lekman live di jakarta. Meski pun pada tiket tertulis waktu 6.30 sore, orang-orang sudah berjejal dari sekitar pukul 4 untuk bisa memasuki foyer. Setelah melalui pemeriksaan, penonton harus mengantri lagi sebelum memasuki ballroom. Kali ini penonton dibagi menjad dua bagian, perempuan dan laki-laki -agak tidak biasa nampaknya dengan konser-konser pada umumnya. Akhirnya sekitar pukul tujuh, pintu dibuka dan penonton pun berlarian masuk, saling berebut agar mendapat tempat paling depan. Ballroom Ritz Carlton Pacific Place yang biasa digunakan untuk acara resmi, disulap menjadi panggung konser. Backdrop sederhana, layar besar di kanan kiri panggung, piano, mic-stand sudah siap di atas panggung menunggu orang memainkan mereka.

Saat jam menunjuk pukul 7.30, tampillaj band pembuka, Holywood Nobody. Kalau dilihat secara objektif, kualitas band ini terbilang bagus. Namun bagi penonton yang sudah tidak sabar ingin melihat Jens Lekman dan KOC, lima lagu yang dibawakannya terasa seperti tak ada habisnya.

Kemudian ada penampilan dari White Shoes and The Couples Company yang merupakan kawan baik KOC. Mereka membawakan tembang-tembang dari album baru mereka yang akan dirilis bulan April ini. Mereka juga membagikan CD teaser berisi dua lagu baru. WT&TCC memang sangat cocok sebagai band pembuka. Ibarat makanan, WT&TCC adalah appetizer yang lezat. Walau ada saja penonton yang duduk saat mereka tampil, mungkin untuk menghemat energi karena konser masih panjang.

Setelah jeda beberapa saat, Jens Lekman naik ke atas panggung. Lagu pembuka 'And I Remember Every Kiss' langsung memukau penonton. Lekman tidak membawa band-nya melainkan hanya ditemani dengan sebuah gitar akustik dan seorang perempuan yang memainkan alat perkusi sederhana. Dengan instrumen sederhana saja, penampilannya sangat luar biasa. Tak heranlah karena aksi panggungnya yang sederhana namun menghibur, serta caranya bercerita. Pantas saja orang sering menyebutnya sebagai seorang story teller, bukan sekedar penyanyi atau musisi. Penonton semakin takjub saat musik latar bermain dari laptop-nya. Tapi ternyata di balik itu semua ada kekecewaan bagi pecinta Jens Lekman. Pertama, Lekman mengakhiri penampilannya dengan membawakan "Sipping On The Sweet Nectar' dua kali. Satu lagi, mereka kecewa dengan antusiasme penonton yang kurang. Yah memang banyak orang yang belum mengenal Jens Lekman. Kebanyakan baru mempelajari lagu-lagunya setelah membeli tiket konser.

Akhirnya, tiba juga saat yang ditunggu-tunggu. Sebelumnya penonton merasa khawatir karena ada pemberitahuan bahwa Eirik Gamblek Bøe sedang sakit karena alergi makanan saat di Bandung sehari sebelumnya. Tapi untunglah dia tetap bisa tampil. Saat Kings of Convenience di atas panggung, penonton langsung memekik riuh -baik yang fanatik atau yang tak tahu bedanya erlend dan eirik. Penampilan mereka benar-benar tanpa cacat. Eirik si pangeran tampan dan Erlend sang entertainer sejati. Mereka membawakan lagu-lagu yang tak asing lagi di telinga pecintanya, Cayman Island, Homesick, I'd Rather Dance With You, I Don't Know What I Can Save You From, Me In You dan lagu-lagu lainnya. KOC berkolaborasi dengan dua personil WS&TCC saat membawakan Boat Behind. Ada lagi yang spektakuler, Erlend Oye sendiri membawakan lagu 'Bersandar' dari WS&TCC (bisa dilihat di sini). Lagi-lagi suara penonton memenuhi ruangan. Penonton kemarin memang agak 'ganas'. Di awal saja Eirik sudah bilang, 'this is the loudest audience', entah maksudnya positif atau negatif.

please come again to jakarta, dear koc and jens lekman.

one day i'll go to cayman islands

pic from http://www.pictureninja.com/pages/cayman-islands/cayman-islands-blue-water.jpg

no pain no gain

last weekend i had my first facial. now i know why people say it forbids you to hold your tears. so every time tear slips from my eyes, i whisper inside my head 'no pain no gain'.

my very first concert

maybe you'll say, 'where have you been?!' well for one and other reasons, it just happened. so last night was the very first time i see a real concert, performed by my favorite artists. kings of convenience it is. they came to jakarta about years ago but i didn't get a chance to see them. so last night was a big night for me.

when i saw them on stage, it was like 'is this for real?' i'm afraid my eyes have betrayed me. yet they were there, playing guitars and singing. i sang along in some songs, in other some, i just stood, closing my eyes to listen carefully to their voices. when i opened my eyes, i stared at them as if there were only the three of us in there.

i'm so glad they sang cayman island. it was their first song i listened to. i will never forget the clip, so beautifully made that i fall for it.

after show, after the crowd was less-crowded, erlend oye wandering at the foyer. he played with his ukulele, rejecting fans' request to take photograph. while playing by himself, he drew near to jens leksman who was busy giving autograph and taking pictures.

he then sat on the table, still playing with his ukulele, singing.

he sang more

his face was getting closer to mine.

his nose was only a finger from my cheek.

hah! i really didn't know what to do! should i kiss him? should i not? should i ask for a kiss? should i not? so i just froze there. and then jens lekman sang along with him. that was a real great closing for the concert.

please watch the video here if you want to see the dynamic duo.

earth hour 2010

dengan menyesal, namun apa daya, saya tidak mengikuti earth hour tahun ini. mohon maaf sedalam-dalamnya, bumi tersayang.

wiki for midtest

ujian tengah semester kali ini benar-benar membuat hati berdebar. karena sesuka-sukanya saya menulis, sama sekali nggak pernah terpikir untuk menulis di wikipedia.

tapi berkat rahmat tuhan yang maha kuasa, tugas terselesaikan juga. biaroun nggak berani senang dulu karena bisa jadi besok-besok akan dikomentari atau bahakan dihapus oleh sang gatekeeper.

wish me luck. :)

p.s. kalau mau mampir, bisa cari 'macbook pro' di wikipedia indonesia atau langsung klik di sini.

ada yang nggak suka?

kerupuk kampung, selalu di hati

gambar http://profile.ak.fbcdn.net/object3/365/15/n43353640892_8300.jpg

Bangkok Traffic Love Story

honestly, i've only watched the trailer but it already HIT me. a story about a girl who's single until she's thirty years old.

'stop being lonely. stop being single', it says.

blok m - depok 23.02.10

setiap hari saya melakukan perjalanan dari kantor di kawasan blok m menuju kampus di depok. tambahan informasi, perjalanan dilakukan pada jam pulang kantor saat kendaraan umum sedang ramai-ramainya dan jalanan sedang macet-macetnya. apa mau dikata, ini pilihan hidup kok.

namun begitu, perjalan hari ini agak lebih menggentarkan dengan durasi yang lebih lama dari film standar di bioskop. mari mengulang perjalanan bersama.

4.00 - membereskan barang dan bergegas menyeberang ke terminal blok m dengan kondisi hujan rintik-rintik *untung tinggal menyeberang. bayangkan kalau perlu ganti kendaraan menuju terminal.

4.10 - tiba di tempat bus langganan ngetem (di bagian belakang terminal). duduk tenang di bus dan bersyukur karena saya sudah di bus saat hujan mendadak deras.

4.20 - akhirnya bus jalan. hujan masih turun dengan derasnya dan bus mulai menunjukkan indikasi kebocoran. saya memutuskan untuk tidur.

4.58 - saya terbangun sejenak dan melihat bus baru akan keluar dari terminal. hujan bahkan sudah kembali reda. setelah membayar ongkos, saya pun kembali terpejam.

5.30 - lagi-lagi terbangun dan mendapati bus sudah penuh sesak, untung saya sudah dapat tempat duduk. saat melongok lebih jelas, bus baru mau memasuki tol yang tampaknya... agak padat.

5.57 - kali ini saya sudah kenyang tidur tapi bus baru keluar tol. hmm. mengingat kemacetan di sana sini, saya pikir setengah jam cukup untuk tiba di kampus. padahal kalau lancar mungkin hanya sekitar 15 menit.

6.06 - saya melirik ke jam digital besar di bengkel pinggir jalan. hmph. jalanan masih macet dan pantat mulai pegal duduk selama hampir dua jam.

6.20 - tiba di depok dan hujan rintik-rintik. saat menanyakan harga payung di pinggir jalan, si mas malah bilang 'saya bukan masnya, mbak'. tak apalah. yang penting berakhir dengan selamat dan bahagia.

terima kasih, tuhan.

justify - AHSP

beberapa hari belakangan sedang senang-senangnya mendengarkan Andre Harihandoyo and Sonic Poeple. jujur saja, biarpun suka, saya belum membeli cd nya 'good (for the soul)' dan baru mempunyai lagu-lagunya dari download gratis yang memang disediakan oleh sang musisi.

salah satu lagu yang saya punya berjudul justify dan semalam lagu diputar berulang-ulang sambil menemani hati yang sedang galau. (haha)

and i say hey ya...
like a bleeding rain
catch me by in the face that i fake
help me
i'm alone with my thoughts
alone with my emptiness
justify every path that i take

there are times when you want to be alone
no drama
no nothing
just alone

the break up - ahsp

lagi nggak bosen-bosennya dengerin the break up dari andre harihandoyo and the sonic people.

give them the credit, shall we

i like to sit on the cinema till the end of show. i won't stand up even 'the end' had appeared on screen. i don't really care when i'm the last person in the studio, only to watch the credit title. i even had the staff come by to ask me to leave the studio. 'the timing is tight, we'll have to start the movie again very soon', she said to me. well what should i do. i couldn't just insist to sit and watch it till it really ended, could i? i hate it even more when they shut the film just like that, as if there were no more audience. ok, it's only me and me alone. but still. i mean, i gave money to watch the movie, right? the whole entirely movie. no one should decide which part of the movie i am allowed to watch. it's supposed to be alright if i want see the logo of 'dolby digital'.

my reason is just simple and... well, simple. they call it credit title for a reason. it's a place or space to put the credits for the crew. not just the main star but also the assistant, even the driver. also every single part involved. don't you love it so much when you read 'thanks to the family of heath ledger'?

escapism

i see the door standing about few feets from me
how i want to reach it real bad
my eyes redden
no air can go through my throat

i scream but nothing come out
i cry but no tear is falling
i laugh but i hear it like a shriek
i feel warm hands around me,but they fly away
leaving me in cold and dark

i see the door standing about few feets from me
i see a light coming through it
i want to reach it
and get out from here

should i feel jealous seeing everyone got superior stuffs from their parents
or should i be proud of myself for purchasing them on my own

nyepi

selamat tahun baru saka 1932.
resolusi: AIM HIGHER

*emang ngerayain?
yah nggak, cuma ikutan bikin resolusi aja boleh dong.

13 hari menuju koc & jens lekman di jakarta

memutar lagu-lagu koc dan jens lekman setiap hari agar, biarpun tidak hapal, yang penting familiar. parapapa...

menabung model baru

bawa uang secukupnya jadi nggak bisa beli hal-hal yang bukan tujuan utama

i've been gilmored

i've just done with the finale season of gilmore girls. it gave me goosebump and tear, always. watching the seven seasons of gilmore girls was so great. it feels like we were living with the gilmores, following them in each scene of their life. it feels like we know the town like our own.

it's a life story, actually. someone out there could possibly happen to be the gilmores. love, life, school, but it's far from typical tv series. changing partner but not with your bestfriend's ex. having ups and downs in life, unlike a chessy movie plot.

it's like i was growing up with rory gilmore. surprised when she cut her bang but never realize if she gets older.

you can see the complete episode guide in here and already you feel like living in stars hollow.

dari tapanuli

suku batak adalah salah satu suku di indonesia yang memiliki karakter budaya yang kuat, misalnya kain ulos yang terkenal. selain itu, batak juga merupakan suku yang kaya akan marga atau nama keluarga. tidak semua suku mempunyai marga atau nama keluarga, seperti jawa misalnya.

semalam saya dan beberapa teman yang berasal dari berbagai latar belakang budaya, termauk batak tentunya, berhasil mengumpulkan beberapa bukti kekayaan suatu budaya. mohon dikoreksi atau ditambahkan kalau berkenan.

1. bangun

2. batu

3. batubara

4. gultom

5. harahap

6. hasibuan

7. hutabarat

8. hutagalung

9. hutagaol

10. hutahuruk

11. hutajulu*

12. hutapea

13. hutasuhut*

14. lubis

15. marbun

16. manulang*

17. mangunsong

18. manurung

19. marpaung

20. matondang

21. nababan

22. nainggolan

23. napitupulu

24. nasution

25. pakpahan

26. pangaribuan

27. panggabean

28. panjaitan

29. paranginangin

30. pardede

31. pasaribu

32. pohan

33. purba

34. rambe

35. ritonga

36. samosir

37. saragih

38. sarumpaet

39. sembiring*

40. siagian

41. siahaan

42. sianipar

43. sianturi

44. sibarani

45. sibuea

46. sibutarbutar

47. sihombing

48. sihotang

49. silalahi

50. silitonga

51. simamora

52. simangunsong

53. simanjuntak

54. simatupang

55. simbolon

56. simorangkir

57. sinaga

58. sinulingga*

59. sibarani

60. sirait

61. sirajaguguk

62. siregar

63. siringoringo

64. sitohang

65. sitompul

66. sitorus

67. situmeang

68. situmorang

69. tamba

70. tambunan

71. tampubolon

72. tanjung

73. tinambunan

74. tarigan

75. tobing

76. watihelu

tanda * menunjukkan marga-marga yang menurut saya agak absurd namun ngotot dimasukkan ke daftar oleh seorang teman. beberapa di antaranya bahkan sudah saya hilangkan.