it was like playing hide and seek

some part of me hid hole and corner

the other part cried to be found

it is as if i were real

one day i'd like to have a studio-like room. it'll be filled with many different stuff.

on a corner, i'll cover the wall with mirror so i can stretch my body as if i were a ballerina.

i will add some musical instruments. i'll pretend to play the piano or guitar as if i were on stage.

one side of the wall will be my canvas where i can paint anything as if i were a true artist.

then i'll make a small cubicle and turn it into a darkroom, so i can proceed the picture i took as if i were a pro.

also i'll install a computer with a big flat screen, not just a mini laptop. i will see the outer world as if i were locked in a cave.

i will have shelves of books and bunches of papers, so i can read or write or doodle as if i have nothing else to do.

when i'm tired, i'll just lay down on my bamboo rug, as if i were dead.

i hate monday

saya teringat masa-masa sekolah di mana saya lumayan sering salah seragam. seringnya saya salah memakai seragam putih padahal bukan hari senin. kesalahan bodoh itu selalu terjadi kalau ada libur yang masuknya saat pertengahan minggu. otomatis saya mencomot seragam putih-putih dari lemari sejak malam sebelumnya. saya selalu berpikir pendek, 'kalau hari ini libur, berarti besoknya ya senin.' sempit ya otak ini...

twilight

there's a reason why being alone is a pleasure.

it is time when you may care for yourself without caring about anything else.

rest in peace, dear sei young

maybe not many of you have known that a girl named kim sei young has been missing since last tuesday (june/8) at bogor, indonesia. kim and other fellow students were doing outbound activity, crossing a river, when she lost her grip and fell to the river. on that moment, big water came and drove her away. an outbound instructor, ade parlindungan, immediately jumped to the river in order to save her. unfortunately, he was found lifeless on the next morning. on the other hand, all the rescue team haven't found kim's body up until this is written.

kim sei young from south korea, approximately 13-14 year old, is a year 8 student in british international school, jakarta. outbound at bogor has been a regular activity for BIS' students since 2002, so the school manage to let this go as an accident. meanwhile many parents regret it because it's supposed to be predicted before, the weather was no good for river-crossing and yet they still went on with that condition.

a group of parents has been praying for kim's safety, or at least being found. together, they've been folding origami birds and let them float on the river. later, the birds were folded using one-thousand-rupiah-paper. the idea is to urge the locals to track the money down the river, so that they may found kim.

end of term - the project

every story must come to an end

each hello is closed by farewell

till we meet again...

akhirnya hari ini tiba juga. hari terakhir magang saya di kantor yang satu ini. hari terakhir dari project saya ini. pastinya project ini masih jauh dari sempurna tapi cukup bangga bisa menyelesaikannya sampai hari ini, meski dengan tambal-sulam. hehe. 

selesainya project ini tidak menjawab pertanyaan tentang masa depan saya, tapi banyak hal yang didapat dari si project. belajar dikejar deadline dan belajar curang -waktu cuma posting gambar. apakah besok saya masih akan menge-post setiap hari? we'll see. rajin nge-post ada asyiknya juga. apa yang ada di kepala akhirnya dituangkan juga. apa yang tidak ada di kepala akhirnya harus sok-sok diada-adain. 

terima kasih banyak kepada segelintir orang yang mengikuti perkembangan project saya. terima kasih untuk dukungan teman-teman semua. terima kasih juga untuk esther, si pelopor yang sudah kembali ke tanah air. dan yang pasti, terima kasih, tuhan.

if only i could do it everyday

confession no. 1

i love my after-work ritual: going to supermarket, japanese supermarket for particular.

confession no. 2

i love shopping for groceries and also ready-to-serve dinner

confession no. 3

i love seeing nice japanese guys there, plus i can tell they're also doing their own after-work ritual

confession no. 4

i tend to postpone finishing my shopping when there's a nice looking guy. 

confession no. 5

when he walked out the store, i walked out the store.