Not Once, Not Never

It is a relieve writing here for I'm quite sure no one shall read it these days.
But then why stick to online if I wish none will read it?
Let's say, this a little piece of me crying to be found.

It is my biggest goal in life to make people happily smile and laugh or even shed tears.. of joy.
It is not a modest thing to do. In fact, it is selfish.
Seeing other people's happy faces makes me happy.
I secretly smile knowing they are smiling because I made them to.
It is my cure.
It heals me.

Sometimes, at time like this, i feel tired of always smiling.
I hate it when someone praises my oh-so-everlasting energy when I am actually exhausted.
Of work.
Of days.
Of traffic.
Or of live.
I'm not proud of it.

Instead of cheering others, I want to be hugged. So tight that I am allowed to forget everything and just cry.

At time like this, I want to think nothing at all.
Forget about people,
work,
earth,
love,
and forget about myself.

At the end, I only wish to disappear.

went to japan

or so i thought...

terlalulama.com

sudah terlalu lama nggak post apa pun di blog.
bahkan sekarang gelar saya udah sarjana. (yay!)
bahkan ada teman yang udah pindah kerja keluar kota.
bahkan sekarang udah musim penghujan.

ah semoga nanti atau besok segera post lagi ya, apa pun.

ciao!

one short trip with super beam

balada anak sd

suatu pagi saya nggak sengaja nguping anak sd yang lagi asyik main sama temen-temennya.

anak a: hantu, hantu apa yang jago matematika?

temen-temennya berisik, 'apa? apa? apa?!'

saya pun ikut muter otak.

anak a akhirnya menjawab. katanya,

HAN

TU

TRI

FOR

FAIV

SIKS

...

little gifts from yesterday

traditional woven at adiwastra nusantara 2011, indonesia fabric exhibition

rainbow choux from over the rainbow, kids event at aksara kemang

magic colors from pantry magic, kitchen set store at kemang

'And it is also said,' answered Frodo: 'Go not to the elves for counsel, for they will say both no and yes.'

'Is it indeed?' laughed Gildor. 'Elves seldom give unguarded advice, for advice is a dangerous gift, even from the wise to the wise, and all courses may run ill...'

The Fellowship of The Ring

The Lord of The Rings Part 1

J.R.R. Tolkien